To my darling, Jennifer
It took me awhile to figure out what I would say to you, how I would write it to you, and why I would do it. Even now I sit here confused as to what exactly I could tell you that would offer you comfort.
I know that you aren’t really religious now, but there is always one line in particular of a church song that no matter how much you try to get out of your head, it still remains.
“You know the depths of my heart, and you love me the same”
Constantly you go over this line in your head and each time it evokes the same feeling, of confusion, hope, longing, pain, and shame.
You don’t believe it’s possible for someone to know all the ins and outs of your mind, body, past, and thoughts. To you it is impossible; it is further to reach than a dream. But I am here to tell you, even if it was the only thing that I could ever tell you, it would be that this type of feeling, love and expression does exist.
I know the depths of your heart, and I love you the same.
I always have, and I definitely always will because I can’t let you go for more reasons than one.
Quite heavy for our first encounter your thinking, but hey what the hell? Might as well begin with a bang!
And this may just be the beginning but for forever and always I will be