You will say yes to many things in life. You will make and break commitments. You will succeed and fail. But mostly, you will fail.
Sometimes, you just don’t have the time. Other times, you won’t make the time. And in the latter case, I say to screw it and stop. Because if you can’t make the time, it isn’t worth it, what you’re doing. If you can’t handle having this commitment, drop it. If you want to live life to the fullest, you have to pack a light bag.
Don’t shirk of all commitments. No, that would be bad. But don’t saddle yourself with things that you do not want to do just because you feel like you have to. You’re not Superwoman. You’ll need breaks sometimes.
Yes, it seems like a good idea. Everything does. All your ideas and plans and commitments seems good at their inception. That’s why you commit to them. It seems fun, or interesting, or maybe even like it will expand your horizons. And it usually will.
But then, the charm wears off. And Kirsten, sometimes you’ll have to push through it. Sometimes, it’ll only get worse before it gets better. But sometimes, the interest just wanes. You won’t have time or energy to use on it. You could be doing something better, you say, and so you skive off.
I know. I’ve had so many commitments like this, you don’t even know. Well, I suppose you will, someday. And I regret each one of them every day, when I realize that I could have been doing something I loved really and truly, instead of something I was once enamoured with, but now have stopped loving.
Remember that time when you had to clean out your room for a garage sale? Remember how good that felt? Remember how great it felt to let go of all that stuff that had been saddling you for years and years? How your ties to those things were gone? Think of the commitments as your stuff: some you want, some you don’t, but no matter what, it’s always nice to get rid of it.
So don’t be afraid to quit. Because if you get stuck in a trudging existence driven by things that you don’t care about, then you’re not living. If you’re forced to do something you don’t want to because you said you would, you’re not living. Life isn’t worth living unless you live what you love. Don’t live life afraid, ever. You’re worth more than that.
P.S. I think it’s time to reassess your priorities. Just make sure you remember what you truly love.